Some years ago I met a man, Serge Benhayon, who inspired me deeply to live in a more loving way. I had a healing session with him to begin with and then began attending Universal Medicine courses. These courses have been a course in miracles.
Why are they miracles?
I am now my true weight, having carried over 20 kg in excess weight for years.
I do not diet, in the usual sense. I eat what I feel my body needs, in the quantity it needs, at the time it needs, to nourish and sustain it.
I have changed my diet, which was full of carbohydrates and sugar and loaded with gluten and dairy, to one which is now rich in quality, nourishing food.
I used to need to eat those foods to keep my exhausted body going and to help me to not feel the pain and sadness I was in. I now no longer need them, as I no longer feel this way.
I no longer drink coffee, having been addicted to it and needing it to get through the day.
I was exhausted, and needed coffee and sugar to fuel me, to keep me going, to do the things I thought I needed to do each day. I now have all the energy I need. It is only a breath away.
I no longer drink alcohol, having previously been addicted to it.
Alcohol was my ‘friend’. It was a treat at the end of a long hard day in a long hard life. It picked me up, it sweetened me, it was a substitute for caring for myself. It was my only way of giving myself permission to stop and sit. Now, if I want a moment with myself, I stop and take a moment. Just for me, just with me – wherever I am, without the need for anything from the outside. I love my days now and enjoy the way I feel at the end of my day, most days, and now I don’t need a reward to feel good.
I now sleep like a baby, having been a chronic insomniac.
I used to stay up late, fuelling myself with alcohol, coffee and sugar. I never felt the day was enough, and would stay up longer, looking for more. Now, I wind down after work and go to bed when my body is tired, by 9-10 pm. I sleep soundly and wake feeling rested and refreshed in the morning, looking forward to the day.
I don’t often feel stressed now, having lived under constant (self-induced) stress in the past.
I still feel anxious and stressed at times, but when I do, I take a moment to stop and bring myself back, by focussing on my breath and what I am feeling in my body. I don’t go looking for stress or excitement to make me feel alive or to distract me from my other feelings, because most of the time I feel great and have no need for anything outside me.
I am now in the twelfth year of my relationship, having been a serial runner-away from relationships.
This relationship has not exactly been easy. But we have, by loving perseverance and commitment to ourselves and each other, developed a quality of love that I would not have dreamed was possible for me when I was young.
I am in a loving relationship, having been in abusive ones before.
I now care for myself enough to have a relationship in which anything less than love is not tolerated. If either one of us brings less than love, in our words, behaviour or being, we say so, as lovingly as we can, to bring awareness to each other and to help each other return to love. We are as honest as we can be with each other at all times, and whatever is happening between us, we deal with any problems by remembering first and foremost that we love each other.
I like myself.
I did not used to feel this way. I now appreciate who I am and what I offer, just by being me, without feeling I have to pay for the privilege of having friends and family.
I care for myself.
I have come to understand that I cannot care for another until I learn to truly care for myself. And, I am putting this into practice, for myself, my family and for everyone.
On a good day, and most days are, I even love myself.
Every one of these is a miracle. Together, they are amazing. And today, I am amazing, and I feel it and I know it. I am a living miracle.
How has all this happened?
- I have never been told what to do (no-one has ever been able to do that!).
- I have been shown a loving way of life, by someone who lives it himself. Serge shares this way with his family, who also live it, and they share it with all others.
- I have been inspired by example: a simple, loving way of life, that is natural, that is the way my body truly wants to live.
- I have been reminded that this way is found inside me, by listening to my inner-most voice, the living wisdom of my body.
- I have re-connected to myself, and made this connection my way of life.
- This way is The Way of The Livingness.
This blog was first published on The Truth about Universal Medicine